What I lack

There is this story in the bible, told by Jesus, that I have never used for an illustration.  I have read this passage MANY times but like MANY other times with scripture, I read it and moved on.  I will just write it out here (it is long so bare with me!):

     "A certain ruler asked him, 'Good teacher, what must I do to inherit eternal life?' 
     'Why do you call me good?' Jesus answered.  'No one is good--except God alone.  You know the commandments: 'Do not commit adultery, do not murder, do not steal, do not give false testimony, honor your father and mother.''
     'All these I have kept since I was a boy,' he said.
     When Jesus heard this, he said to him, 'You still lack one thing.  Sell everything you have and give it to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven.  Then come, follow me.'
     When he heard this, he became very sad, because he was a man of great wealth.  Jesus looked at him and said, 'How hard it is for the rich to enter the kingdom of God!  Indeed, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God.'
     Those who heard this asked, 'Who then can be saved?'
     Jesus replied, 'What is impossible with men is possible with God.'
     Peter said to him, "We have left all we had to follow you!"
     "I tell you the truth,' Jesus said to them, 'no one who has left home or wife or brothers or parents or children for the sake of the kingdom of God will fail to receive many times as much in this age, and in the age to come, eternal life.'"           
                                                           Luke 18:18-30

OK.....so....this passage came to me as I was talking to my husband about a family member.  I was saying, that like the rich man, this person knew what he needed to know....he was just choosing to not give up what was needed to really make that change in his life. 

What is crazy about this is that another friend suggested this podcast from Francis Chan titled "The Thrill of Obedience" for me to listen to.  I did and wouldn't you know it Luke 18 was used in this podcast.  So I started thinking obviously the Holy Spirit wasn't just bringing this passage to my head for my family member but it was also for me.  What is it that I won't let go of or can't turn from?  What is keeping me back from following Jesus with all my heart?  What sin am I holding on to for what ever reason I can justify it?

Now I am not saying that I only have ONE sin....I was just asking the Lord to show me one to work on right now...but instead of one he showed me two!  : )  One I can share and one I can't.  The one I can share is respecting my husband.  So I am asking those who know me personally to come along side me and help me in this.  Being a wife who honors, respects, and loves her husband unconditionally is the most important "job" I have here on earth.  Like the rich young man, I too know what scripture says about this...now it is time to do the one thing that I lack so that my treasures will be in heaven and I can be used by Christ more here on earth.